Sigh

SCREW this stupid thing i posted on the last time .. i will do i when i have time

Have ANYONE ever felt like this .. that we have found our special one, she the one i love, the one i want to spent the REST of my life with, my other half , my soul mate, ..... there too many thing that describes her.

I thot that over time maybe the feeling would dim, maybe i could control it like other times .. but this time is different.. this time it just grows .. i longer to be with her, i longer to be there for her if shes needs someone, i longer to give her my best and to ensure she is always happy, i long to give my ALL for her !!

But everytime i see her or am with her, i m lost for words, i m tongue tied.. i cant be myself ... fear .. fear of rejection of pain and hurt and lost .. fear that she isnt the one !!!

God tells me to wait .. i noe hes intention are good for me .. but Lord sometimes it seems impossible ... i dont noe would to do .. and for once i dont noe wad to say ...

Shes soo beautiful on the outside but eve more so on the inside .. if theres i can do for her i would ..

DEDICATED TO YOU

but wad can i do ... seriously ...

SIGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Something to do

I got this from Natchoo's blog. I thought it'll be more meaningful to have something to write to/about. Although I'm not going to post all of it on my blog, thought it'd be nice for you all to know what I've been/will be doing. And those on my blog can read it, if i just so happen to talk about you, then wonderful. (:

Day 1 — Your Best Friend

Day 2 — Your Crush

Day 3 — Your parents

Day 4 — Your sibling (or closest relative)

Day 5 — Your dreams

Day 6 — A stranger

Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush

Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend

Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet

Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to

Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to

Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain

Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you

Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from

Day 15 — The person you miss the most

Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country

Day 17 — Someone from your childhood

Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be

Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad

Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest

Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression

Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to

Day 23 — The last person you kissed

Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory

Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times

Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to

Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day

Day 28 — Someone that changed your life

Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to

Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror

I'm not going to do this for 30days consecutively. Just thought it'll be a good reflection of my life.

update

hahah i think i need to start updating ...lol

A reflection

Hi guys first post of 2010

Updates:
1. JOIN SERVE
- its been an amazing time
- learn a lot!!!!!!!!
2. Jobless
- hah no $$

Guys WHAT IS IT WILL GUY AND GIRL HAVING A CLOSE RELATIONSHIP .. I MEANT .. JUST BECAUSE A GUY IS CLOSE TO A GAL IT FREAKING DOESNT MEAN THAT THEY ARE TOGETHER OR THAT THE GUY LIKES THE GAL .... I MEAN SERIOUSLY ...

NOW BECAUSE OF THIS .. EVERYTHING IS JUST SUPER COMPLICATED

Back again

HI ALLL ... I M BACK ... the past few months have been really really tough but i realised that i have lost focus and that i have been so far away from God .... THATS Y THINGS SUCKED SOOOO MUCH .... BUT NOW I AM BACK and will update about CHURCH CAMP and the other amazing things soon!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! BUT PRAISE GOD ... I AM BACK!!!!!!!!!!!

Guys PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE LISTEN TO THIS, amazing songs:

I will never be the same again

Tear Down the Walls

SIghhh.

Sigh ... not out of the woods yet .. cant see the light .. darkness that all, hypocryte is the best word to describe me ... wads the point.. is there a meaning ... i was suppose to be the light ... i have lost my shine .. where did it go wrong ... what went wrong

Confused

Sk asked me some pretty difficult but important qns ..i mean its sooo true how do i noe i love her or shes the one? How do i noe whether i actually listened to God right when he said i should wait .. How long is he refering to? .. Were u even refering to her lord? I mean there are so much qns that is just am so confused .. They are 10 million more qn .. Lord would u please help me i beg u