Stumbling

Each time things seem different where things seem to be finally improving .. Suddenly a new problem arise .. A new setback appears.. Y is it like this .. Y y y y y y .. God show me ur face .. Let me see and experience ur glory once again ... I need u desperately .. I noe u are out there .. But where ..

Argh

Everything is crumbling .. My emotions my thoughs my walk my God .. The reason is because u are in my mind ALL the time .. I am worrying and thinking abt u all the time ... Should i just give up being me and become the selfish person i never wanted to be