Sigh

SCREW this stupid thing i posted on the last time .. i will do i when i have time

Have ANYONE ever felt like this .. that we have found our special one, she the one i love, the one i want to spent the REST of my life with, my other half , my soul mate, ..... there too many thing that describes her.

I thot that over time maybe the feeling would dim, maybe i could control it like other times .. but this time is different.. this time it just grows .. i longer to be with her, i longer to be there for her if shes needs someone, i longer to give her my best and to ensure she is always happy, i long to give my ALL for her !!

But everytime i see her or am with her, i m lost for words, i m tongue tied.. i cant be myself ... fear .. fear of rejection of pain and hurt and lost .. fear that she isnt the one !!!

God tells me to wait .. i noe hes intention are good for me .. but Lord sometimes it seems impossible ... i dont noe would to do .. and for once i dont noe wad to say ...

Shes soo beautiful on the outside but eve more so on the inside .. if theres i can do for her i would ..

DEDICATED TO YOU

but wad can i do ... seriously ...

SIGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Something to do

I got this from Natchoo's blog. I thought it'll be more meaningful to have something to write to/about. Although I'm not going to post all of it on my blog, thought it'd be nice for you all to know what I've been/will be doing. And those on my blog can read it, if i just so happen to talk about you, then wonderful. (:

Day 1 — Your Best Friend

Day 2 — Your Crush

Day 3 — Your parents

Day 4 — Your sibling (or closest relative)

Day 5 — Your dreams

Day 6 — A stranger

Day 7 — Your Ex-boyfriend/girlfriend/love/crush

Day 8 — Your favorite internet friend

Day 9 — Someone you wish you could meet

Day 10 — Someone you don’t talk to as much as you’d like to

Day 11 — A Deceased person you wish you could talk to

Day 12 — The person you hate most/caused you a lot of pain

Day 13 — Someone you wish could forgive you

Day 14 — Someone you’ve drifted away from

Day 15 — The person you miss the most

Day 16 — Someone that’s not in your state/country

Day 17 — Someone from your childhood

Day 18 — The person that you wish you could be

Day 19 — Someone that pesters your mind—good or bad

Day 20 — The one that broke your heart the hardest

Day 21 — Someone you judged by their first impression

Day 22 — Someone you want to give a second chance to

Day 23 — The last person you kissed

Day 24 — The person that gave you your favorite memory

Day 25 — The person you know that is going through the worst of times

Day 26 — The last person you made a pinky promise to

Day 27 — The friendliest person you knew for only one day

Day 28 — Someone that changed your life

Day 29 — The person that you want tell everything to, but too afraid to

Day 30 — Your reflection in the mirror

I'm not going to do this for 30days consecutively. Just thought it'll be a good reflection of my life.

update

hahah i think i need to start updating ...lol

A reflection

Hi guys first post of 2010

Updates:
1. JOIN SERVE
- its been an amazing time
- learn a lot!!!!!!!!
2. Jobless
- hah no $$

Guys WHAT IS IT WILL GUY AND GIRL HAVING A CLOSE RELATIONSHIP .. I MEANT .. JUST BECAUSE A GUY IS CLOSE TO A GAL IT FREAKING DOESNT MEAN THAT THEY ARE TOGETHER OR THAT THE GUY LIKES THE GAL .... I MEAN SERIOUSLY ...

NOW BECAUSE OF THIS .. EVERYTHING IS JUST SUPER COMPLICATED