Arrogance

Hi all,

In recent week i have been really burdened and tired and i really didnt noe why. Sigh yes it is the sad truth that everyone would go through these patches. However the thing is that I did not go to God for strengthening . But one fine day, the in the middle of the night while I was thinking of my friends and all their struggles i though of isaiah 40:29-31:

29He gives strength to the weary,
And to him who lacks might He increases power.
30Though youths grow weary and tired,
And vigorous young men stumble badly,
31Yet those who wait for the LORD
Will gain new strength;
They will mount up with wings like eagles,
They will run and not get tired,
They will walk and not become weary.

After reading this verse, i didnt occur to me that what God was trying to say to me and i just happily smsed my friends this verse hoping to encourage them. After that, the day after,I had an arguement with my mum one thing she said struck me. It was that i keep concentrating on my friends and that i had neglected my family. After that she left the room and i was all alone reflecting on my past week and I realised the reason y i was so tired and burdened was because I wasnt drawing my strength from God but i was trying to please all my friends and in turn becoming someone i was not and i got lose in the facade that i had created for myself and as such i dint feel contented or happy. Then i went to talk to a friend and after that convo i realised that God wanted me to noe that the real me is wad he wants and desires that i shouldnt seek mens' approval even if it is the approval of person i like.

After that, i just felt so much better. I meant although there were incidents that happened the following week like when someone didnt something to hurt my feelings unknowing (yes its true that i get hurt so little comments and remarks, the thing tis that i never show it, i just laugh it of and crack another joke just to hide it), i was still able to go to God in prayer knowing that he is more then sufficient for me.

As such, there was a song that really blessed me today:

Still

Hide me now

Under your wings

Cover me

within your mighty hand

When the oceans rise

and thunders roar

I will soar with you

above the storm

Father you are king over the flood

I will be still

and know you are

God

Find rest my soul

In Christ alone

Know his power

In quietness and trust

I mean how amazing is that that no matter what no matter how difficult the situation is God i there for us. I want to end of with a very famous story:

Footprints in The Sand

One night a man had a dream.

He dreamed he was walking along the beach with the LORD.
Across the sky flashed scenes from his life.

For each scene he noticed two sets offootprints in the sand:

one belonging to him, and the other to the LORD.

When the last scene of his life flashed before him,

he looked back at the footprints in the sand.
He noticed that many times along the path of his life,

there was only one set of footprints.
He also noticed that it happened at the very lowest and saddest times in his life.
This really bothered him and he questioned the LORD about it:

"LORD, you said that once I decided to follow you,

you'd walk with me all the way.

But I have noticed that during the most troublesome times in my life,

there is only one set of footprints.

I don't understand why whenI needed you most you would leave me."

(THE MOST AMAZING PART)

The LORD replied:
"My son, my precious child,I love you and I would never leave you.

During your times of trial and suffering,

when you see only one set of footprints,

it was then that I carried you."

Dear Lord,

Thank you for never giving up on me, when i run and falter and fall you chase afeter me and catch me so that i dont hurt myself. When i sinned, you diesd on the cross to save and redeem me so that i wont have to suffer for eternalty. When i go through the time, you share and take my burde and carry me through it and you take of the pieces of glass on the floor while i rest and sit comfortably in your arms. THANK YOU LORD! i love you and i am sooooo sorry when i have hurt you and neglected you. I pray that you will always draw near to me and NEVER LET ME GO that you will always be my shield, shelter and fortress. Thank you lord i am yours!

Love,

your son

Shengwei